something I had to let out...

im missing someone.. the fact that i do, kills me.. because when i talked bout it, it'll just make it worse. so i hate it. so i make myself busy.. with family, friends and school. but there are times when im alone n i start to think about it. how i need that someone badly.. if only i could, only just only, wish i could see that someone just even  for a minute, i would be satisfied. by seeing, i meant in face to face see, not skyping or ym'ing' or even mms'ing'. i wanna look at the real one. not the visual one. i noe it's a lot to ask. i noe i couldnt have everything my way. i have to think of others as well. well face it qistina, it's life! it aint just revolve around u. bak kata pepatah org melayu, "berakit-rakit ke hulu, berenang-renang ke tepian, bersakit-sakit dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian". wah... i berperibahasa.. hahaha XD but what d peribahasa stated is true.. to gain something is not easy, even happiness. so, u have to go through many challenges in life in order to gain or achieve what ever u want including happiness.. huhu :( tough.. i noe.. but heyy, life's a journey.. its a very complicated one but it's life... anyway, if life sgt happy sepanjang mase pun cam kind of weird.. dun u think so? ya la.. without any challenges.. cam dull pun ade.. haha :D okayh.. enough of me.. i noe u must probably wonder as to why im like this.. maybe because i rarely spend time for myself, when i do i became kind of a weirdo.. haha :D hurm... maybe i should reward myself sometime..hurm.. interesting.. what should i do..? :) neways.. let me think bout that, well... when i have time to post MAYBE i'll tell u.. hahaha :D

till then, take care! ;)

Qistina Ali Azizan

been long overdue... hee :)

heyyy :)

its been awhile since my last post.. haven't had the time to blog.. really.. okayh la.. i have but then internet connection pulak sucks! haha :D rite qistina, blame that! wee :D anywho, ive lots to tell.. my life have so far been stable.. happy of course! but along with it also have d bitterness of life.. hey, life is not all happy n such.. n it  does not just revolve ONLY around you.. u must think before u say n always appreciate n cares 4 others around u.. i noe that now. face reality even though its difficult but hey its life! :) neway, stop it with the oh my life sux sometimes for awhile.. lol! hahaha XD just be grateful for what u have.. cos there's others out there might  be far off worse than u.. anyway, need 2 get going.. meeting my besties!! havent seen them for awhile! am also missing my sayang n my sis.. cant wait 2 meet them too! its okayh.. i'll c them when i c them.. lol! haha :D

till then, take care everyone!

 xoxo
Qistina Ali Azizan

why..?

why?

why does it bother me..?

why does it make me think..?

why wont it leave me..?

why oh why?

should i just ignore it..?

but it is still bugging me...

oh no..!!

this.. is going no where...

stop it qistina..

it is not worth it...

there is a lot of important stuffs u should worry about...

this, is just one of those distractions you have to deal with...

so, deal with it!!

huhuhu ;(

I should be grateful for what I have right...? :)

GOD is great...

everything has it's own way through it...

all I need now is to be patient..

eventually everything's gonna be alright...

i hope!

amin~

sorry.... ni.. story a-z punya.. :)

hahaha... sorry for d late update.. balik fr PENANG, sume org demam including me.. hahaha :D
neway, im back now.. okayh.. byk nak update ni but tp asal ade okayh la.. yg lain, ade kat facebook.. hehehe ;)

PENANG

best pergi.. love to come n visit again! ;) July 2nd 2010 is d date when my family n i went to penang for abg long's wedding! of course la we went with d bus sponsored by Delinz n Atok hawt.. TQ!!! its not just any bus u noe.. its very comfy + super sejuk smpi everyone who went with us to Penang DEMAM! haha :) odw to Penang, as usual qis la jd pelayan everyone.. hahaha :D ade macam2 name.. hahahah.. d bibik name is still melekat to me.. i wonder y.. cet! hahaha :D neways, it's a 4 hour journey.. tiring, lame.. tp best gile!!! i like.. ;)
maybe its because everyone ade owh! except 4 sofea.. MIA la pulakk.. we start d journey around 4 ish n safely arrived to Butterworth at 8 ish.. around dinner time la, straight gi makan tuh.. mee udang lagi! i super like!! :)

baru smpi nih.. :)

dinner kat sini!

mee udang!!! yum2!!

with bro - in law ksygn.. hahaha ;)

hehehe :) those pics are fr our 1st day trip to Penang.. very tiring and fun as well.. :) then we went to the hotel, Ecotel kowt name dia.. we stayed there for 1 night because d next day da nak blk n its d nearest to d masjid n my sis in law nye place.. so, okayh la.. we rest 4 d nite after dinner.. mlm tu call hilmi.. wuaaaa.. i miss him badly!! sayang.. i miss u.. blk cpt! haha :P

okayh.. stop it with d sayang2 already.. continue our story yea... hurm.. d next day qis n family pon kelam kabut jugak la siap n prepare d hantaran thingy.. nasib cantikk.. the groom is tremendously nervous 4 d akad nikah.. hahahaha XD lagi2.. dpt adik cam ni lagi la.. saje je chuak kan dia.. ckp macam2 la.. lg nervous la pak cik tuh.. x beragak......... hahahahahahaa XD sorry abang long.. we love u but we love 2 sakat u MORE! hahaha :D

at d cafeteria for brekkie with syasya n nadia! :)

in front of d bus with Atok Hawt n Mak busu! :)

tgk la.. sume org da x sabar nak pegi masjid for d akad!

haha.. sempat berposing! smile for d camera! :)

heee :) baru ade pic of me :) tp hv been edited! :)

haaa.. then we went to the mosque cos abg long da x sabar n veryyyyy nervous.. nasib 1 lafaz je abg long, if x....... jd bahan kiteorg la smpi bile2!! hahahaha XD

amacam..? dlm masjid pun boleh bergambar.. hee ;)

ai... suke nye yg kat blkg tuh.. ye ye je :P
ni estimation of 'how much d hantaran cost'...

ye.... nasib baik lepas... if x...
aiseyman.. tp ade pulakk abg long ckp sorry mase bace syarat2 tuh..
aduyai.. :P

ucu ni.. kiteorg nak amek pic abg..
okayh kak yana.. tutup mulut tuhh... :P

owh man.. i look big..ni sume kak yana punye psl la..
cover dia, qis pulak yg terbesar..
owh.. abg chik MIA.. demam...

almost 4got! dis is kak yana's pic bertudung! nasib cute! :P

okayh.. move on to the reception pulak.. d reception took place at Dewan Panorama, Butterworth, Penang. the reception was okayh.. comel la.. filled with my favourite colours..tp still x se best kak yana's wedding! hehe :) sorry abg long.. 

we just arrived at d Dewan.. all smiling.. cant wait for d bersanding part n MAKAN time!!! :)

d happy couple.. waiting outside while waiting for d kompang crew to memekak..
heee :P
ye ye je abg long sengih.. :P

d happy couple da bersanding... macam kawin main2 kn..?
dua2 pun muke cam budak2 je.. heee :P
neway, it was a beautiful wedding...

ayah ni.. smile la skit.. d groom n his father.. weeewitttt!!  XD

mama... always happy for all her children! love u ma!!!

cheers!! we are happily married!! -abg long & kak baizura-

kiteorg pun nak merase.. heee :)

d whole lot except for abg chik.. tibe2 ade high fever, so he stayed in d bus.. sian..

heee :) sempat senyum meyh... candid ucu x jd! :P

so thats about it.. wedding abg long n kak bai at Penang.. Congratulations 4 d happy couple! semoga berkekalan sampai ke anak cucu.. Heee :) cpt!!! qis nak anak buah.. kak yana lambat sgt la! hee ;p

last but not least, we went for last jln2 at penang.. mkn at hameedah nasi kandar n bought lots n lots of jeruk tp tertggl.. mama la ni.. pe la... ade la sikit terigt.. hahahaha XD

penang............ mari berjln2... :)

byk kan kiteorg melantak.. al maklum la.. sume kelaparan... abes tau sume nih :)

family yg kuat mkn.. abes la sayang... prepare ureself! hahaha XD

last photo of the journey... everyone look very tired n exhausted.. 

but we had lots of fun! :)

thats the last of it.. my journey to Penang with d family! very tiring but lots n LOTS of fun! love u guys... 

hope u enjoy reading it.. i had fun creating this entry.. hurm, lps ni nak pegi mane pulakk..? owh!! abg chik nye GF kat Kuantan!! yeay! KUANTAN here we come!!!! heeee :)

P/s: owh, credits to ucu for all the wonderful pics! TQ!

till my next post! take care everyone! 

XOXO

its been awhile :)

heyyyy...

im back.. sorry 4 d late entry.. neways, i need to post an entry as often as i can.. its one of my new term/semester resolutions.. haha :)  i'll try my best to make an entry as creative as it can or should i just belasah je..  mane2 pun boleh la.. tarahal.. janji ade.. hehehe ;) okayh la.. gtg.. got class 2moro, n i really need my beauty sleep.. nitey nite!!

i'll be back for more entries! weee :)